It’s Been A While
Updated: Feb 11, 2021
Hey Loves, it’s been a while. How are you doing out there? I hope you’re well, safe and trying to enjoy the summer as best you can.
At the start of the year I wanted to share and talk to you all more about life, mom things, fun things, everything, then Covid-19 aka Corona Virus hits. This virus has taken so many lives worldwide. New York was hit hard too. We were a quarantine state by the end of March. That led to many businesses closing. If you weren’t a essential business your doors were closed for the safety of the public. Schools were closed too; remote learning came in and “homeschooling begun”. Remember back in March I shared my thoughts about homeschooling my children. Let me tell you what I experienced was nothing I intended homeschooling to be. At the end of the day it was still remote learning. I believe all the teachers, students, parents and care givers dealt with remote learning as best as possible. We had the stay at home order in place and it was difficult to stay home believe it or not. We live in a get up and go city environment so to stay home every day for months was new.
While we were all trying to figure things out in April we learned and the murder of Ahmaud Arbery. He was killed by white men who hunted him down. In May we watched a video of an officer kneeling on the neck of George Floyd that moments later led to his death. Not too long after that Breonna Taylor was gun downed in her home by police officers who to this day have not been arrested or charged. All of these murders led a worldwide Black Lives Matter protest. These protest occurred for weeks.
Like many of you who are reading this post my sprits were low. It was like I was waiting to hear more shocking news. My energy changed for the worst. I felt defeated everyday. I worried about life so much in the months of March, April and May that I lost weight, then gained weight, lost gained it back all from stress eating or lack of eating. I was always tired. I was not my best self and I knew that.
To help me get back to me I began meeting up with my friends Cindy (you meet her in the last post) and Sophie. Cindy and I met up to go on morning walks and that helped tremendously. Pre-Covid for years we always met up around this time of the year to get our summer bodies ready. After all summer time was coming Covid or not. Walking in the park allowed me to let go of whatever was on my mind. I left everything that troubled me there. I always looked forward to our walks because we had girl talk and we were getting fit at the same time. When meeting with Sophie our conversations we enlightening. We spoke about everything above and below the sun. The turn of the times, astrology, true facts, and what were consuming mentally and physically. Journaling helped me over these past few months as well. Putting my thoughts and feelings on paper became a habit. When I woke up I wrote and when before I went to bed I wrote. Some days I was rambling and other days I wrote entries that were pages long. Meditation was/is the starting point of my day. Waking up early to meditate even when I didn’t feel like doing anything else worked wonders for me too. I woke up early to watch sun rise and listen to the birds chirp. These small things felt so big.
In June we celebrated Juneteenth (June 19th) for the first time. To celebrate your blackness and educate yourself about it was a good feeling. In New York Juneteenth is now a state holiday. We’ve come a long way but still there is sooooo much more to be done. July is here and things seem to be going well. NYC is beginning to slowly open up and many people just want to get back to normal. Truthfully speaking I don’t think there will ever be a “normal“ again.
I’m praying that this half of the year will be the best because the first half was a plummeting roller coaster ride. It’s said that 2020 is the year of clarity, understanding and healing. Maybe it is, I’m looking for forward. We’ll see if there is any truth to that.
How have you all been coping with the first half of this year?